Friday, March 7, 2014
So it’s happened, I’ve been blasted by astrological forces. My life has been turned upside down and I’m sitting in a funk of the leftover pieces. My ass has been handed to me by the ‘Saturn Return’. Normally it happens at 27 but it can happen as early as 24, which is where I’m at. All of the things I didn’t accomplish in life, all the growth I was suppose to make, my life is falling apart because I failed. It hurt, I lost everything and almost lost the love of my life but praise Lord Hermes for keeping us together. Honestly if it wasn’t for Lord Hermes watching out for me I would be in an even bigger mess.
When this all happened I became very sick and lethargic, I didn’t have the energy to do anything not even my magickal practice. It’s been a couple months since I even casted a spell (that failed by the way). All my work seemed to just slip from my psyche like I never learned it. My abilities became shot, I cant meditate like I use to, contacting animal spirits has become more challenging, my energy isn’t flowing like it use to, worse of all I don’t feel connected to the Divine like I once was. I feel disconnected and powerless. I don’t know what else to do except pick myself back up and start from scratch.
I still have the love of my life, my fiancé, by my side and Lord Hermes watching over me. From here I can do anything. So I’m rebooting, going back to basics. I’m going to figure out what I need to accomplish to right what Saturn has destroyed. I am thankful to my family who has helped me pick up the pieces and who let me rest after the initial shock of the impact from Saturn. I feel different, in a good way, like I shed all that was holding me back before. I’m ready now, to make the appropriate changes in my life starting with my practice, as it is central in my daily life and beliefs. Maybe this time I will grow and accomplish what I must in this life.
Wish me luck and strength,
1) Place fresh rose petals into a saucepan. Pour in water, enough to make petals float.
2) Boil for 15 min.
3) Cool and strain the petals out:
4) Bottle the water, label it and keep in fridge.
Note: use bottled or fresh spring water, this version does not keep long.
Powers: love, luck, protection, psychic powers, divination, healing, attraction
Friday, December 6, 2013
On a whole, dried bay leaf write your need or symbol of your need in black or red ink. As you do concentrate hard on your intent then visualize the leaf being filled with white light ( or any color that corresponds to your need) then light the leaf on fire and place in heat proof container. Scatter the ashes to the wind saying “Blessed Be!” The spell is done.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
1 part salt
1 part black pepper
1 part marjoram
1 part rosemary
1 part st. Johns wort
1 part bay leaf
1 quartz crystal 1 black sachet
Charge each ingredient with red protective energy.
"I charge you in the name of the Moon and Sun, to protect your wearer from harm on every level. No evil can withstand you, no negative force can bare your power. So mote it be!"
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
I have changed the visualization attached to the last line of the Mantra of Oneness. When I say “I am one with the Universe” Instead of visualizing a spiral I instead visualize a ball of brilliant light shining above me, filling me with white cosmic light from head to toe. The ball of brilliant light represents the Source or Goddess. Doing this has enhanced the mantra further and the result is a better connection to Universe (and my higher self as well).
On another subject, since my last encounter with Horse spirit, I have been calling on Horse for endurance during work. When I call on Horse, I see it melding with myself and turning me into the chocolate brown horse I changed into in my last session. The results are an immediate increase in energy, I feel strong and confidant after the calling and work has been easier to handle. I have also melded with Fox to acquire the sharp wit and cunning needed in certain situations. I have found that Fox can help when one needs eloquent speech or critical thinking. I also find that I can meld with Fox when I want o go unnoticed and need camouflage.
My abilities have increased tremendously and I am happy with the way my studies have evolved. Spell craft has been easier and I have more vitality in living. Where just a while ago I was feeling stuck in a funk, I now feel positive and more in control of my life and path.
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Animal Spirit Meditation:
For the first time ever I used a voice recording of myself and went into a guided meditation to meet a spirit animal. To be honest I was just testing the recording out to see if it was effective, but I got a wonderful journey out of it. To my surprise I was visited by a Horse spirit, I was expecting to meet Fox again but Horse immediately came to my mind and appeared before me. It was a large white steed with light bright spots on its rear end with a blonde mane and tail. I asked if Horse was my totem, it shook its head no. I asked if it was a protector and it shook its head yes. I asked what its message was and a voice came to my mind, a strong cocky voice that said it was to teach me endurance, power and to show me what love is. I then started to change into a horse. My body was covered in dark chocolate brown hair and my mane and tail were black. I then realized that there were fences around the whole area and in fact these fences separated the horse spirit and myself. Where the horse spirit was free to roam in open limitlessness I was stuck in a limited fairly large place with oddly fenced off areas. It was time to end the meditation so i changed myself back into my original form and thanked the Horse spirit. I then exited the astral realm and climbed the astral steps back into my physical body.
Wow, I really didn’t expect to be visited by Horse spirit. Its message wasn’t very clear but the fence thing sure was. Horse was shoeing me that I somehow have limited myself by fencing off parts of myself. Perhaps it wants to teach me the power to bust down the fences or to endure the strain of life, haha. I don’t get the “show you what love is” bit but Im sure Im gonna find out. I will have to question Horse again in the near future.
On another subject its been six days since I started using the Mantra of Oneness and already I am feeling its benefits. I have more energy and it really helps me focus when I need to. I have gone deeper in the visualizations behind the verses. Now when I visualize the elements its like I become apart of their energy. Earth is cold and solid,dense. Air is fluttery, active and moving. Fire is consuming, hot and very active. Water is soothing, cool and receptive. The whole mantra itself has proven to be a great stress reliever, leaving me calm and collected afterwards. When I connect to the Universe, I drift into a mild trance and can feel myself being bathed in cosmic energy.
On top of that I am now doing daily rune readings to get a feel of the energy surrounding me on a daily basis. Also I’ve added the middle pillar exercise to my daily regimen. Things have been productive lately. Im happy and moving forward in my practice. Im Loving every minute of it.
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Trying out an experiment with a mantra to be said during the 3 points of the day, waking, midday, and before sleep. I will do this for 28 days. Upon which a channel should then be set up based on the affirmations and visualizations in the mantra. Making it easier for me to access these energies. I call it the Mantra of Oneness, “I am one with the elements.” Then visualize the four elements, earth,air,fire,water. “I am one with myself.” Visualize the 7 major chakras and my aura. “I am one with the universe.” Visualize a spiral that is my symbol for universe. Besides that I am busy trying to put together my own Triangle of Manifestation. It will be a great project to undertake and can only work to enhance my spell craft. I am still putting together my Ritual B.o.S, I am rewriting some sabbat rituals and what not. Just another day being witchy haha.